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Crisis and Fear vs. Surrender

This essay is intended to be a bit more personal than the others. I had the urge to write about a personal lesson with a hope that it could help others as well.

Since Corona virus pandemic broke through, life-styles have been changed drastically and people were forced to face their biggest fears.

It was just couple of days before, when I felt so happy declaring that no fear can touch me because I have already faced the "Dark Night of the Soul" and I am not afraid of dying. And the Universe looked at me and smiled. Are you sure that was your deepest one? Let me show you something.

I promised myself that I would not involve in political issues anymore, but after I heard the news from changing governing form in my country, it pulled the trigger. It was my home after all. And even if I left it for more than 13 years there is an uncuttable umbilical cord.

Here came the unexpected trigger which pulled me back to the basic fear. The fear which whispered to me that I would be completely cut off from it or worse, in case of return, I would face the same abusing issues, which I faced in the past in the Middle East. Is that fear rational? Who knows? It could be or it could be not. But that was the fear what kicked.

That kind of fear-drive took me back to the political field - which I hated back than and I promised to never return - and I found myself got involved to a heated argument about the political regime.

The main learning point of the whole lesson - which was a blind spot to all of us - was that politics does not have good or bad answers. Politics is a game, which can be bended any way depends on the interest of each counterparts.

That is the reason, why in time of facing crisis, chaos among the political elit can lead to unforeseen structural changes. And in an individual level, fear arise and individuals start projecting their biggest fear to all who dare to stand in their way.