Long time back when I was 9 years old, I had a terrible car accident which resulted in 5 days in Coma. I came back with the message that Love is the most important think in the whole existence. My mum wanted to help and she did her best and she assigned me into a Christian church. That journey took almost 10 years and left me deeply traumatized with a feeling that I am a sinner, God is a far away reality from me, obviously a Male and he will never ever accept me to the Heaven